urrrrrrrrrgggh. i leave 2morrow night for nyc and then montreal. i a excited but if the opportunity were to present itself right now...i dont know if id go. its been such an effing STRESS case to get this whole thing organized! i am sooo drained. i just had the hardest semester of my life. and then immediatley after it ended ive been moving and getting ready for this summer. im not so sure if i am really excited anymore about the whole thing. i kinda just wish i was staying in reno working and saving money. but i am already too deep in so i may as well just go with the flow. sometimes i annoy myself how i am always on the go and i just cant be "normal"....like why in the hell am i constantly searching out new adventures...its fun but why cant i just be happy with staying in reno for the summer?? why do i have to pack all my shit up and jet to a different country??! i exhaust myself sometimes. i just sometimes wish i wasnt sooo extreme. i need to be more balanced. i dont really know what i want right now. i need to effing relax. i feel my brain has been full speed since january. hopefully i will learn a lot this summer about gardening and more. i am nervous to meet the other interns. i hope they arent weird hippys. that would just be the cherry on top. my brain/body is an ice cube right now and i jsut need to let them melt. im way to caught up in my thoughts/emotions right now. i need to lettttt goooooooooooo.
well heres to a mysterios summer. that i hope will be amazing. i want to fast forward right now to the end of the internship...its going to be a lot of work and i hope i have it in me. wish me luck blog.
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